Obviously, it's not easy to be in our position. It's more motions than we were built to absorb sometimes. The mix of despair and hopes, ups and down, love and anger, self-pity and resentment.
It seems to me that the most useful thing you could do now is to calm down. You come across as very frantic. You repeat the same things over and over again. You jump to conclusions regularly. You panic over minute details as if your M depended on one discussion.
Take a step back and realize that this is a marathon. You say you have two months left before you get your green card or before she leaves. Well, your sitch is going to take much longer than this. Almost all successful sitches do. It's going to get worse before it gets better.
I think this has all been said to you before. I'm guessing that it is against your nature to calm down, so that it probably played a part in your sitch. This is an opportunity for you to develop a certain emotional maturity. You need to come off as stronger. Sometimes, it does involve hiding your fears and feelings in favor of acting the right thing. James Bond may jump from a train with apparent confidence, but I'm sure if we heard his internal dialogue, it would sound like : "Omg, is this the end?? - I don't recall jumping that far - it's so windy, will I make it?? -- guys, can anyone help with this?? - why is it always me?? - oh no, I don't want to die like this after all I've been through!!" Externalizing and focusing on this is self-defeating. Start acting as if you were confident, mature and strong. Fake it til you make/become it.
This will change a lot of things in your sitch, including how attractive you are. It will give you a clear head and a sense of perspective on what really matters. It will be a guide on how you should act around your W and other people related to the sitch. It will give you some inner peace and focus on what really matters.
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
