You are back... and sound really good. I was so worry about you. You disappeared for so many days. Vanilla, Toots and I were even thinking that you got all mad with us because we started having some fun on your thread.
As usual, it's good and comforting to hear from you. You are right and I am sure I do not deserve all this. I have my nagging and I am probably a control freak, but I know I had a lot of responsibility in my hands and I couldn't just let go. And every time I did, things would fall apart.
I will take my time to reflect and try to make some sense of my decisions. Right now it feels that more then half of me wants to just be done with all this. But, for the sake of 18 years together and maybe my idiot H is an MLCer. I will give it a chance to stand until it can't wait no longer.
Today I feel a little better. No much, but it's sunny and not as cold. H picked up the kids this morning but didn't get there earlier and got into the house as usual. So he is getting it that he needs to give me some space for now.
I tough about what to say and what to do if talking to him gets inevitable. I just hope to get some rest this weekend. I am so tired this week.
And RD, I accept the XOXOs you want to give me. It's very amazing how it feel so good to know that someone cares. Even if it is online chat.
You all make a lot of difference in my life, I am so thankful I found this forum because I feel stronger with all the comfort words and advices I get here.
