train, 25yrs, others who kept up on my sitch

[twinmom]

Ok, will respond as I have free hands to type :-)
First, everyone is right. But I have thought about it a lot lately and realized I am not really mad about him paying for things. I find that when I have flashbacks and those days that feel like BD was yesterday I tend to look for something to be mad about. I guess I feel like being mad about what occurred almost a year ago (and ongoing til summer) is not gong to get me anywhere. Kind of like "aren't you over that already" so I look for new things he does wrong.

The money issue has always been hard for us. We are both very independent and it's SUPER hard for me to not contribute equally. Yes, he pays bills except for my car insurance that he was paying and I had it changed to my bank account for the withdraw. I also pay the direct tv and internet bills because they are in my name and I changed them to come out of my account. I pay my cell phone bill by calling into Sprint and make a payment for my half (his mom is on the account too but H is still on OW family plan with AT&T). I pay for all groceries/household supplies, all entertainment, my two older boys school tuition and the extras like sports and Christmas/birthday presents.

It's easier for me to get angry about something like this than to tell him "I'm angry AGAIN that you did those horrible things to me"