Thanks for your kind words of hope. Unfortunately I do not have much hope. H was very determined to move forward with D after the whole soap opera that we have been going through.
But now, I think that things escalated a lot. He is having a full A with the OW. I wish I can hope but I would be lying to myself and I do not want to hurt no more. So I really believe I need to detach as much and as fast as I can.
I also do not know what to do anymore. For now, I feel like I do not want to have any contact with him. But, how can I be all nice with him when I know all what he is doing?
I can maintain a business like R, but the smiles and feeling upbeat, that I will need to train myself and I don't even know if it is worthy.
