Your words are so much comfort to me. Sometimes I feel like we are sisters. By the way, a cup of coffee or tea would be great.
Yes Toots, as I predicted H stopped by the house to drop off the boys stuff. It was 6:46pm he text me saying he left a cooler, pillow and coats by the door. Some nonsense message since I am not blind yet.
So, he came to the house and there was no one here. I am glad his plan did not work. Today, he is coming to pick up the kids by 7am. Again, I think he will get here just a little earlier and try to set up some time for us to "talk". I will be leaving the house by 6:40am, so he can't see me or talk to me.
I don't know if what I am doing is right or wrong, but the OW is still in town. I can't just pretend that everything is OK, and I don't want to hear how sorry he is or whatever stupid excuse he wants to give me or even talk about the D.
I am setting up an appointment with another attorney. I want to check if this L are in the same page. Then I will make a decision of who I will work with.
I am very confused about filing the D. Sometimes I want to just file it and finish with the whole drama, some other times I feel that why not to wait, H is the one that wants it, then he can file. I just don't know what to do. Maybe I need to seat on it for a little longer and see if I can get to some conclusion.
The first L I saw told me that would be better to file asap since I know that there is OW in the picture. He said that H can start spending lots of money and it will complicate the D.
Today was a bad day for me. It was all good, but I felt like crap the whole day. The reality is that I do not see any hope at all. I feel that next time we talk will be about the D and that he wants to separate finances and finish everything between us.
I know it's going to happen sooner or later, but I wish I had some hope and I don't. Maybe some people get back together after such tragedy, but most couples separate and it's forever.
I wish I could see some sign at least that H is somewhat confused, but there is nothing. He send me this text because he is feeling guilty, not because he cares about me. It's all about him.
Maybe I go back to what Wonka said, that H is an MLCer, maybe this all explain itself if this is the case, but it does not change the outcome.
I need to detach, and it's harder then I tough it would be. I need to get busy, but I am tired. There is just so much emotions all over the place that I am so tired of dealing with all of this.
Today, another busy day. Work is busy, will be busy with kids, need to go to the bank, do some paperwork, laundry, dinner, S17 guitar lesson, buy a book for school project, and if I have some time go to bible study.
Hope that slowly things will get better. Hugs, Pink
