Hey Sred, sorry to see you are here. Being betrayed by someone you love is extremely painful. Unfortunately, you're not going to get help working through this pain from your wife this time. You're on your own and need to start building a new, or rebuilding an old, support system of a few close friends or family members who will support your marriage and you no matter what the outcome is. Come back to post on this forum regularly. It is a great resource for help and encouragement.
You need to focus on getting a life (GAL) and detaching form your wife emotionally right now. Space and time are your friends now. The first month is a roller coaster, but the days WILL go by and it WILL be get easier to sleep, eat, live if you choose to GAL.
My 180s & GAL activities were exercising regularly, participating more in church, joining a basketball team, going on a trip by myself, stopping arguments from getting out of hand by backing down when I became angry or either of us started to yell. What are some 180s you can make right now for yourself?
UpperCut Me: 28 W: 25 Married: 4 yrs Together: 7 yrs Dday: 9/14 (W ends affair & comes home) S: 12/14 (W restarted affair 1/15; moved near OM 2/15) No kids