Torn Apart

[Complex]

Very sorry to hear. The initial shock is huge, and the deeper we dig the harder it gets. in your situation I would highly recommend to get professional help asap!!

First of all keep breathing. Try to detach your mind. And go buy Michelle's book asap. For your own sake, your own sanity. And post some more details, but try to make things clear, create a timeline of how things happened and what the current status is.
There are a lot of great people in here that are able to help you and give you some answers and guidance.

Keep your head up. And don't do anything stupid. Whatever you do from here on will most likely make everything worse. So think twice or three or four times before you say or do anything regarding your W.

You can do this