Singing in the Lifeboat

[daring]

I'm having a pretty good day today. I know they'll come and go but it's nice to feel this way!
Texted H about meeting to discuss the taxes this weekend. Said he thought we would file separately. I really think he's trying to hide something- likd maybe the money he got from his company is more than he's telling me and he knows he'll look like a total a$$ if I find out. Especially since I've been paying everything for kids since our separation Oct 2013 until this month.
I reminded him it's a community property state and we will still have to share all the info and then each claims half. He texted we should let the accountants handle it. I texted him point blank that I think he's trying to withhold info and I don't want to have to legally force him to give it but I will if I have to. He texted back that's not what he meant- he just doesn't want to mess it up and wants accountant to handle. I let him know we could discuss later.
It's not just I want to know- I have to be sure we both comply with all filing requirements or my payment plan with the IRS could be null and void.

My IC said today I've looked the best she's ever seen me- like I have some glow back in my face. I've been seeing her since a year before BD when H was in replay and our marriage was falling apart. I was feeling a mess and very hard on myself then. It's nice to see how far I've come. Journey's not over but I have climbed some major mountains. It's nice to feel like I have some of my power back!