Dawgy, my first 11 thread titles started with the word "blindsided". I truly was. I absolutely thought we were happy up until the moment of BD. I have no idea why H didn't come to me and say he was unhappy. I'll never know. But it doesn't matter now. It doesn't change what I need to do for my future.
Dawgy, you are becoming increasingly bitter and angry. And while that's understandable, is that the person you want to be? Choose something different.