Precious friend, would love to see some GAL. PMA effected by lack of GAL I feel.
Look outward not inward and there will be movement.
The goal is to be the best you can be for you. You have moved a great deal in your thinking, keep that forward momentum going. This is just a phase and it will pass.
Go GAL V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW