You are so kind to me. I feel like I would like to rest my head on your lap today. It's hitting me hard today.
I won't change the locks, he will need to respect my privacy if he wants or not. If he tries anything he better be prepared. I did Karate for many years and last championship I got 1st place in my category. He also knows who I am and when I am serious mad even de Devil hides from me.
Now it's 3pm here and around 5pm I will pick up the kids and drop them off at the movie theater, then I will go to my MIT meeting (mom in touch) it's a prayer group for moms. The I will go back and pick up the kids and we will eat something outside. I am planning to go back home late today.
I have a feeling that he will stop by the house to drop off the kids pillows and coats and he will say hi to the dog.
Reality has been hitting me hard, and now it's time for me to show him that if you play with fire, you will get burned. H was playing Don Juan and family man at the same time, now it's time to realize he left his family, he does not have it anymore.
I am no one to punish him, but I do not need to fulfill his needs. He made his choice and I think he need to realize what are the consequences of those choices.
The hardest part of all this is that I realized how much I love this idiot. It would be so much easier if I do not love him so much.
Oh well, it's time to stop the love. I need to love myself and my kids and that's all.
Vanilla, I wish there was some kind of annual DBusters that we could meet each other. We sound like the people that have some heart left, some kind of value that translate us as special people. I started thinking that most of us, if not all, come to this board feeling guilty, but with time we start seeing that we did so much good and so many troubles were not really our responsibility.
We were talking about food over at GG's tread and I promise I will try to eat at least a soup today. I am losing weight again. I can probably afford to lose as much as 10 lbs but if I lose more, then I will probably in trouble.
By the way, my H never repaired anything. I am the one that repair, do maintenance, basically I do everything in a house. I have a plan for my appliances maintenance too.
I hope tomorrow I am not such crying baby like today. I have been crying for over a year now. 1st was S20 being very sick and suicidal, then S14 with whooping cough, then the D bomb. Wow, it is time to buy some red high hill shoes and find myself a boyfriend.
Take care Vanilla, I will make myself better a little every day. Nothing will destroy me because I have God with me.
