Thanks for your words Toots. I took a class this morning. But whatever I do, I'm absent. I realized I'm still very very attached. After I went to bed again, cried and slept. Very depressive. Didn't eat today that's the hardest part. I simply can not eat. I'll see a doctor on Monday and ask for help. Tomorrow till Sunday I'll be gone for work. I'm very afraid of going. I'm missing her family too. They are MY family here. I married them too. Mine is far far away and I can't see them. I know it's going to take so many months....scares me so bad. I'm not going to make it without therapy and friends. The board here keeps me alive. I read all day every day. Sometimes I'm sitting here refreshing my browser in the hope soneone answered to my posts..like now, no answer in a day^^.
I don't think anyone could do what my W is doing to me if they could emphasize the pain, just be in my head for one single day.
But I have to survive. There might be a good life waiting for me one day
Me 32 (German) Wife 28 T 3yrs M 2yrs Moved to US for W No kids BD 6/2014 In house separation Confirmed EA 1/2015 (ongoing since BD) OM not ready Real D talk started 1/27/15
that's the hardest part. I simply can not eat. 
