"I would raise my voice but not to the point I would consider it as yelling."
It doesn't matter how YOU consider it. It matters how SHE perceived it. Do you like it when someone raises their voice to you? If not, then why do you think your W liked it when you did it to her? What you say and the TONE in which you say it is what matters. Have you changed this?
"She will only text or email me. She sent me an email last Thursday, telling me I had some mail at the house. I replied by thanking her for letting me know about the mail. We haven't seen or spoken to each other in 2 months."
What was your last face to face like when she moved out? Were you angry at her and raised your voice then?
"I haven't done anything with her family for 2 years. She said this was one of the reasons why she left and not going to church in years."
Is this something you're willing to change? If not, then why should she want to come back?
"She has also said, "She does everything." Meaning I didn't work, and pay the bills. I did laundry, dishes, mopping, vacuuming, worked on the cars when needed."
How active were you in finding a job? Not necessarily in your field but just employment in general? Did she ever talk to you about how she wished she had more help rather than being the primary breadwinner?
"I felt like our intimacy was lacking (I'm not referring to sex). Most women would want to be held or cuddle on the couch. She didn't seem to want this."
Be honest here. Did you only hold her or cuddle her when you wanted sex? Or when you felt insecure? Women want to be held and cuddled by men in a position of strength. What else have you changed besides your anger? How do you look physically? What about your self-confidence?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
