I'm so sorry for how your sitch has turned. As you say, probably dim/dark is the only way right now. You have already had a big talk and told her how you feel about the R. She knows that now, and 'going there' again in the near future will probably hinder rather than help.
If she's in touch with OM, her focus is there for now. And if your focus stays on her, that's just going to hurt even more. Best to try and shift your focus onto yourself as best you can and start moving forwards - I know it's painful.
But, she's not going to be looking over her shoulder right now, and probably not for a little while yet..
Best of luck to you x
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
