W is still being very nice, but I know she is still deeply in Replay and looking forward to her trip. I think she's being nice and in a good mood because she knows she's going on the trip and will be with OW soon.
So it's hard right now because she was so upbeat with the kids this morning and friendly towards me, but I know that nothing has changed and she is still focused on separation from me and pursuing whatever she thinks she can have with the OW. (Which -- as I've explained before -- is crazy b/c OW is 20 years younger and lives in another country...)
I find this hard because when she acts the way she did this morning I can almost see the W I know and love coming through the layers, but I know that nothing has changed and that the behavior does not mean that she's waking up and willing to give us a chance to rebuild.
So frustrating and painful right now...
I need some good news on the job situation ASAP...
I need to figure out something to do this morning (work around the house, read, something) so I don't slide into a depressed mode and spend the morning feeling sorry for myself...
Oh how I hate MLC and what this has done to our family!
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
