WAW Affair admitted

[Ontheup]

Feeling pretty SH1t this morning. Not had much sleep and things seemed a bit frosty between us. I really don't know if I can carry on being here. I made the most of getting my daughter ready for school. I'm working at home today which isn't great as im on my own with time to think!

I was going over some more In my head about the timeline and things started to drop into place. She says 6 months to me. Now im not sure f that's when they started sleeping together or if that when they started EA and lying. Anyway looking back over my notes I can see back in September that Jane had tried to talk to me about a way forward with us which at the time I didn't discuss. Was this some sort of last effort on her part? We never did discuss and things then obviously escalated between them. She was all the while very negative about my Mum which was all directed at me. Now this is definitely an issue in our relationship but I can see now why she was making huge a big deal about it on a regular basis. It puts the blame on me. Makes it easier for her to carry on doing what she is doing. Eases the guilt. Reading up this is a common tactic. September into October there were still sign of her caring. Called me babe a few times, stroked my arm that sort of thing. This stopped fairly recently all together. Was this when she gave up completely on me? She seemed to be wrestling with the 2 situations October and November last year. We spent a lot of time together as a family and there was still some tactile moments in November early December and she was also comfortable with me still see her semi naked. She had asked me also to check her foot which was sore so felt comfortable with that. It seems end of December she finally gave up me. I had noticed she would not get changed in front of me. I also recently noticed new underwear. Any mention of a way forward for us stopped. She became obsessed with her phone. Spent more weekends in "work" Week before I found out she took her rings off. Completely checked out.