Thanks so much Vasapro, Squiggy, Jim, Toots and Edz. It means a lot that you all care so much. You all know I do not have family in the USA, I have some very good friends and they have been amazing just like all of you.
My H called this morning (8:30am), left a message asking me to call or text him because he wants to talk to me. I ignored it.
Then he text me at 11:52am saying that he appreciate if I let him know when we can talk this week. I ignored it.
And I intend to ignore every single contact from him at least today. He probably wants to talk about the D, but guess what: he can go ahead and serve me the papers. I do not care.
In Colorado you do not need any cause to serve D papers, you just go to the court and file the D, pay the fee. The other part is served and have 21 days to respond. So he does not need to talk to me about it. Just have some guts and do what he has been throwing up about.
I tough about it and I believe I do not need to bow to him anymore. He is the one the cheated, lied, ignored our M, leaving the family, being a 20 year old guy having secret sex and fun. So go to hell because I do not need to talk to.
I am done for now. I understand my M is over. Only God knows if one day our paths will meet again, but until then I have my dignity, and enough is enough.
I can cry and hurt like never before. But life taught me to stand for myself in many occasions, to be strong and value myself before anything and anyone. He is not going to toy with me.
I am crushed but I am also ready for the D. Today I feel free, I do not need to care anymore, I do not need to figure it out what to do for him to comeback. I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, but I don't want to be a slave of this love anymore. Not sure but maybe I will be better of without someone that did what he did to our family.
If one day we decide we need to get back together then I will say what we say in my land... He will need to fight the bull horns first.
I will try to feel a little better every day. Right now it is salt on an open wound. It just simple hurts.
Thanks for the support, again it means a lot to me.
