Right so forgiving the anger is for me so that I can behave more relaxed. I feel on edge all the time and my happiness is too much on how H treats or doesn't treat me.
The divorce abatement will be 6 months February 25. So I feel this 30 days is a good goal for me.
I just want to see quick results. It's how I've always been. So I'm going to ease off the pressure on H. No text this whole week, oh well. I won't bring it up. (That's an example by the way haha)
I just have to figure this out with someone living in the same house as me. I got good at being relaxed and no pressure while he was gone when he was acting cuckoo! Oh well; at this point I feel I've been through so much what's another 30 days. I may get a little more cuckoo with lack of calories from this diet so bare with me everyone
Anyone that wants to detail how I should act I'm all ears lol.
Last year I confused do nothing with ignore and came off rude. I need to perfect happy, backed off, no pressure
How exactly -- not quite sure yet.
Oh and my first step of forgiveness - I will forgive H for giving up on getting the money from his boss. I will not hold it against him and respect that I won't get the money. I am accepting that I am less 5000 and suck it up. If I can let that go maybe i can look at it as me letting go = me not spending that money on a L. I would much rather lose that money and have H than spend it getting a D. Hey whatever spin it takes, right
