You probably love the “thought of me”. Thank you for the compliment though.
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I just feel crazy and out of control.
Sounds to me like you feel crazy because you’ve found a side of you (aka – you want sex) that you do not understand. Normal if ya ask me.
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I know it takes time. I need to get my head together. I am a pensive one. I can't get out of my own f$&king head. Literally.
Time to stop saying “I know” and do something about it. Get out of your head! Can I ask you a simple question…..what does GB like to do beside work, kids, and think about getting some? Really….what kind of stuff do you like to do? What stuff have you always wanted to do?
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I was never sexually attracted to my xh.
3 kids and no sexual attraction? Hmm….sounds like this new GB is rewriting history a bit.
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I thought he was cute but I never respected him.
Define respect. What makes you FEEL respected? How do YOU show respect to others?
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I want someone to take charge.
What does TAKE charge LOOK like to YOU? Is this just from a sexual perspective or do you want someone to take charge overall? Define it.
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I want someone to want me
Who doesn’t. IMO, everyone wants to feel wanted and hell I would even say that as much as we say not to “need” external validation – I think on some level everyone does. I think the issue with “wanting to be wanted” …is trying to find the right balance. Do you feel that you are not complete with out this – IMO, not good. Feeling the need to want someone to want to be with you is okay….as LONG as YOU are okay with also being alone. Get me?
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I have these very sexually charged exchanges with men. I don't even feel bad. Yet. Maybe that comes later.
First you are divorced now. You really can do whatever you want as long as IMO, you do not go against your moral fiber.
You want what you want and you want it now. I get that. Here is the thing….it will come, when it is the right time for YOU (and YOU do not determine that imo). Wanna go get some lovin…I say go for it as long as you are aware of the impact it will have, which could be good or could be bad.
GB, you are at an interesting time in your life…a time, IMO, where you are really trying to find out who GB really wants to be. The natural tendency is to think that someone else can help you figure that out – IMO, they can’t. You need to find GB first and foremost….then…..you’ll find what you are looking for.
Oh…and you are not crazy.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans