It was so counterintuitive for me to not let myself feed into the energy, and set that boundary to not hear things about him. I have always been a need-to-know-everything kinda gal. So when people here told me to step away from that stuff, I was absolutely convinced that I was different, and that my sitch was different, and I was ok hearing it. Even worse...that I absolutely needed to know certain things.
I was lying to myself.
Eventually, the heartbreak pain became greater than the need to know.
The first time I asserted that boundary, I didn't do it because I wanted to. I did it because nothing I was doing was working. And I finally listened to what people here said to do, knowing I really didn't believe in it. I did it anyway.
Afterward, I felt this incredible sense of... Lack of better word... Pride. I was proud of myself for stating what I needed. It felt good to honor myself. It was a sense of confidence inside, that I am in control of what I let in.
Having that sense of control over ME...was amazing. Because it is REAL. We mistakenly believe we control outside stuff. We eventually learn we really do not.
Your confidence will soar once you begin honoring yourself and your boundaries, Mighty. THAT will pull you out of some of this funk like nothing else.
