Thank you everyone for your support. I don't even know how to describe how I feel. Luckily I am off for the next 2 days to absorb this nonsense.
I work thursday and have counseling. As I said H told me he will not be attending per the C recommendation. I'm not even going to mind read on that. I just feel tired - physically and emotionally. I don't even care to react to anything *right now*
The way he walked away from me and told me I was controlling and he wasn't arguing I was left dumbfounded. It was the behavior of a small child stomping his feet in the toy store for not getting his way. That is not how I want to spend the rest of my life
The car he purchased is in his name and he financed it so it doesn't affect me so to say. However, he can't pay 50% of the bills but can afford a new car payment. That's my frustration along with being in the dark about it. I told him it takes a minute to send a text just saying hey I'm at the car dealership thinking of getting a new car. Not asking for permission but including me.
He makes rash emotional decisions.
Anyway. I think I'm going to start the books I bought. Not sure if I should with where things are right now, any thoughts?
