Just seen w when I went to collect the children And she didn't even look at me, she's prob over her Mates now saying what a jerk I am for not being A good little boy and letting her have her own way Like I normaly do and I haven't changed a bit.
I have changed though and I know because I'm a happier person, getting happier by the day But I can't tolerate being lied to and manipulated By someone I've spent half my life trusting.
Sorry about the rant but my dog is fed up Of listening lol
no MrBond i have not read either, ive done a search to try and download them to my laptop with no success.
as you know, having the rug pulled from under you and being hit with a sledgehammer a few times sends you to a dark place for a while and at that time there seems to be no way out, but with everyday that passes comes more of an acceptance of the situation.
i know theres no such thing as a good time but we had only just started a 2 year project building 3 dream homes for our families and im the friggin builder lol. through it all ive kept my word and completed the first 2 for the in laws and had to go there everyday knowing my own dream and my kids dream home probably wont happen and thats sort of rubbed it in a bit.
there has been no hiding place or getaway, on top of that om gf comes up to plant seeds every so often, w lives on route to the site, mother in law lives opposite me so i cant help but know when w is there (which is a lot) and om plays football on the pitch behind my house, its the A that is the problem at the moment, if there wasnt one we could be working on the real issues
so thats why its been hard not to focus on the A, its in my face constantly, but im realising slowly that its not in my hands and theres not a great deal i can do about it.
its not the end of the world like i thought at the start, im healthy, my children are healthy and ive got many other things to be thankful for, so yes i feel a hell of a lot happier than i used to.
ive taken everything w has said on board and can honestly agree with her, i can see my own faults now and can see where it leads. i know in my own head that ive changed in certain ways and would be a better partner because of them, that makes me happier too.
maybe on their wedding day couples should be given a " how to make a marriage work " starter pack and a hand book issued every 5 years so you can see whats ahead. theres a deffo a pattern to most marriage problems, prevention is better than cure so they say :-)
I understand your frustration. But right now you have to understand that there is no magic bullet to this. It will take time and patience. It's up to you whether you have enough of both to save your M.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
She's not asking MrBond, I filed the day she moved out, I thought if things Improve I can always cancel and if they don't then so be it.
she's always insisted she won't sign, but was Still seeing om secretly, she never ever admits it though Until I catch her out, then I confront her and the arguing Starts.
She says I'm a hard worker, good father, good person And she's never wanted for anything but I'm not Affectionate enough.
