Did you ever read DB or DR? It doesn't seem like you've done anything but focus on her A. Just because you "feel happier" doesn't mean you've changed.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER