One of the problems is I have had a hard time landing full time employment for the last 8 years. Seems I can only get temp jobs or only part time work.
What do you do? Is there a reason why you may be having a hard time finding a steady job?
I have B.S. in electronics technology. Because of health reasons there are some places I can't work at. Seems my field of study is overcrowded and there are few jobs. I applied for some jobs outside of my field. One of them was for a call center and another one at a department store. I had interviews at both places but didn't get the job at either place.
"The reasons stated why she wants a divorce is because she says I am angry all the time,"
Is this true?
I have been angry and frustrated at times. There were probably a lot times I was angry and didn't say anything but it was written all over my face.
"I am angry with God,"
Is this true? Why?
Yes, I have been angry with God. I had prayed to find a full time job and not much has happened. I became frustrated and it eventually turned into being angry and bitter. I felt like I had been abandoned by God.
"I haven't been to church in years"
Is this true? Why?
Yes. I worked weekend nights back 1999 was unable to go to church. Then in 2000 I thought I had unintentionally blasphemed against the holy spirit. I felt terrible for a couple of years and didn't think I was worthy to go back. After being away from church for 3 years, I started thinking I didn't need to go to church and I didn't need God. In 2006-2007 I went to church sporadically. Then the whole job thing came into play.
"and I don't want to spend time with her family."
"I don't want to do things with her family because her mom and aunt get loud and obnoxious. I had a falling out with her mom almost 2 years ago."
What happened?
Back in 2013 my W was in the hospital. Right after they took my W into surgery, my mother-in-law and sister-in-law started badgering me about finding full time work (I was working part time and looking for full time work). I didn't think this was the time or place for this conversation. All I could think about was my W in surgery. After my W came out of surgery and was okay, my mind went straight to the conversation my mother-in-law and sister-in-law had with me earlier. I became angry with both of them (I didn't tell them) and the more time that passed (were talking about months)the angrier I became at them. In Nov. 2013 I found a temp job, working 40+ hours. I volunteered to work thanksgiving night because I didn't want to be around my mother-in-law or sister-in-law and Christmas Eve I told my W I didn't feel like going over to her family's house. I didn't tell my W about what happened at the hospital until Nov. 2014 and how I felt about it (I did this out of anger), six days later W told me she wanted a D.
"I have been seeing a counselor to work on my frustration and anger. Also trying to improve my chances of getting full time work."
In what ways?
My counselor told me that anger is a secondary emotion and I need to find the underlying emotion (primary emotion) that is causing the anger. Then I need to deal with the primary emotion so that it doesn't turn into anger. My counselor says I have a lot of the signs of someone who feels vulnerable and that I don't have a lot of faith in myself. I think these two things show up during an interview. My counselor is going work with me this Wednesday about improving my vulnerable feelings and lack of faith in myself.
Those seem like pretty big issues. Are you really willing to change for the better?
