Gogofo - no longer piecing 2nd BD - pt. 2

[gogofo]

Signed the papers to accept the offer on the house. Had a quick lunch with W and youngest son. During lunch she seemed distant and then asked me if I knew where I was going to move.

I told her I did not want to talk about it right now, but we could later.

So I don't know what to do. I feel like I have been hiding and scared of her and I am tired of it. I want to tell her how I feel and how I stand for us being M through thick and thin.

I know that R talks go against the rules of DBing, but I don't know what else I can do. I feel like I should do something though. I feel like she has been walking all over me and wants to force me out. I have no actual "right" to stay in the house since we live there rent free and it is her family's house.

Is there any reason that I shouldn't let her know that I love her and will fight and do what ever it takes to save the M? She hasn't used the D word, but I don't think that matters. She has told me she is done.

Is there any reason I shouldn't do this? I feel like I have not been showing any backbone, it would be a 180, if it even matters at this point.