George Orwell said "Happiness can exist only in acceptance."
I'm going to test that now. Start living in my sitch instead of fighting or escaping it. Time now to take advice well given here.
It funny... my sitch is paralleling Denver_2010's a little. He struggled with anger and control, then set a 90 day countdown for himself to get control, then left that when events kept spiraling out of his control.
Events keep happening that I couldn't possibly predict. I can't imagine what could possibly happen next.
So now I'm down to day by day. Just slow down... focus of my circle of influence... shrink that circle if I can. Find one thing I can really be passionate about doing. Keep doing it. Share my passion and centeredness with my boy. Keep going.
I have to keep... start... DBing.
Today a very beautiful and special woman said she loves me. Said she always has. And she said we have no future.
There's no escaping this for me. I have a vision for my life on my own. I can do much more to get there. No more distractions.
Onward.
Me: 44 W: 45 S: 11 Married: 15 Together: 18 BD: 9/29/2014 OM discovered: 10/16/2014 I left her behind: 12/14/2014