My changes in everyday things are real But my feelings on this affair are getting Worse.
I let myself down yesterday and today by Having a go at her for being a sneak,a liar, And for manipulating me for 10 mths.
I asked her if she was so unhappy why Did she wait until she " had someone" before Telling me how she felt.
I put it to her that she couldn't do it alone, It's easy to split if you've got someone else To be nice to you and look after you, what a coincidence it was That the man of her dreams just happened to Be the person who works with her, and By the time I meet someone new she will Have realised that the clown isn't the Man (boy actually) of her dreams.
I also said that all this stuff about not knowing Who she wants is her being afraid to be on her Own and she can't let go of one until she Knows she has a firm grip on the other And that if he was the type she likes then She can jog on because Thank God I am Nothing like him and never will be.
She in turn brought up emotional needs she Felt I didn't meet, most of which I agreed to And said I would have tried, she said she doesn't even know herself Anymore if she was expecting too much From a partner.
Do I take from that Om is wearing a bit thin ?
I insisted that this thing she's doing, coming over an acting like We are best friends has to stop, she chose To leave and theres no inbertween.
I've probably broke every rule in the book over the last 2 days But to be honest I didn't care at the time, I was sick and tired of Being treated like a pet she can check up on when she feels like.
