Strong EA after 2 yrs M #2 - The journey begins

[Complex]

I know, I know I have to focus on myself now, and I actually am in very good DB mode and my approach changed drastically.
- But (yes the good old BUT) the more I review the situation (and I still am, in my head, unfortunately) the more legit I see Ws and OMs relationship.
They love each other. W is HEAD OVER HEELS (!!!) in love with him and he seems very legit about her, even respecting her still being married, he even has guilt (but if he is that legit about her he must think "well she did this to him and it's a horrible thing, who says she isn't going to do this to me one day?). While W is the more 'active' one who wants to make it real but M is still in the way. She actually moved to day-shift to be around him more.
My gut is just telling me HOW REAL this is...not good. There is no light at the end of the tunnel, at all. The only light I see is improving myself. It's the best thing that could've ever happened to me, I believe that. And I will do that.
And I guess a year of self improvement really is not a year in jail. It is a good thing.
At least I know my situation well, it is better than guessing. It helped me to move on.

I need to get my mind over this. ASAP!
I ordered 3 sessions DB Coaching and have my first one tomorrow. Thank god I have a therapy session with a psychiatrist in 3 hours...
OH GOD HELP - mental throwback