First day of real DBing started. Saw W this morning before she left for work. I was upbeat and friendIy. She seemed very distant although we had a very short small talk. It's her first day today working day shift again after night shift for almost a year. I just wished her a good first day at work. Interesting how she made herself pretty this morning...she never really used to. But I noticed she's doing it for a while now.
Gotta keep going and focus but I'm happy with this morning bc usually mornings are the toughest times for me.
Try not to over analyze your observations of her during this period. Focus more on yourself and what you need to be doing as part of your DB plans. If it's been a couple of years whats a couple more to several months on a strict DB and self improvement plan?
Keep in mind she still might not turn a direction favorable for you, but it is a better chance of it than what you were doing without a plan.
Also you will be further ahead in life by doing the things you need to do. The best DB'ing efforts come from a strong 180 and getting so much into your life and what you want to do that you aren't even concerned about what she is doing.
Maybe and just maybe she will wonder what the heck are you doing that is taking all your attention away.
