So, I've been a lurker for wbout 6 months now, but I just wanted to let you know that I totally relate to how you're feeling. My husband and I are in piecing, but I've gone back and forth between piecing and DBing several times because I still don't know that my husband has fully committed to staying. He doesn't know himself.
I think feeling sad one day and wanting a divorce the next is normal. I feel those extreme emotions and everything in between all within a few hours sometimes! And yet I put on a happy face for my husband and children, even if I was just crying in the bathroom. I know you're doing the same and just coming here to vent, and I want you to know I appreciate you sharing your story. It really helps to know someone else can relate to how you feel, which is why I'm finally posting. No great advice, just someone who relates and is wishing the best for you, whatever that may turn out to be!