Strong EA after 2 yrs M #2 - The journey begins

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Thanks for your time

Yes I do feel like I'm depressed and ended up in a vicious cycle. Lost my direction. I just totally settled. I was happy with what I have, but I didn't need more and my wife was too responsible for me. She criticized me for exactly those things too after BD. Although I made good efforts this year to improve my situation but then I lacked drive and passion.

I agree on everything you said.
NEXT WEEK (Mo-Wed, Thu-Sun I'm gone for work again):
MO: - Therapist appointment (I am NOT going to ask him how I can fix my marriage, of course I'll tell him my situation, but my therapy should be about me), Gym, finish DR, Getting some information on the upcoming Semester, signing up for courses
TUE: - Work, College, start the book "boundaries" (Starsky's recommendation), meeting a friend for dinner.
WED: Gym, work, getting info about seeing a priest, maybe confess


Legal things:
Starsky preaches to act in my own interest. Which in my case means to stretch the D as long as possible. To buy myself time before things get finalized.
My citizenship application is ok to do now, until April. It will probably process decently fast and I'll have it latest in April.
Then I am afraid W will rush into D. But we will see. Is there anything I can do to put a hold on filing etc? Maybe rather go for legal S?
Nothing to really worry about right NOW but I want to be prepared.

Last status of W: parents should get involved soon. She didn't fully speak it out but her position is: I'll get my GC, and after a "reasonable" amount of time after (so it doesn't look to obvious and I jeopardize that they still take it away) we head for D.
I'm not sure what a reasonable amount of time would be after Greencard renewal.
Fact tho is I would very likely to be able to renew since I can proof that M was real and I want to save it but W is leaving me. It's all about the good intentions, but I have to look into details of that. It's risky to rely on that probably.
But the government is spying all this here anyway

Either way, it's going to buy me some time. But it's rather complicated to figure it out the right way and figure out how much time I have to at least turn quick D plans around. Wonder if W actually knows that's its going to be a little more complicated that she thinks....she mentioned weeks ago if we both agree we can make D uncomplicated. She wants a "friendly" D. Parting as friends. But we got property together so a lawyer is unavoidable anyway.

I don't have any clue how long D will take and what is going to happen. I'll just act in my personal interest and be as loving and understanding at the same time.

Main focus is on myself anyway but I want to act in my own interests when it comes to D plans and set my own healthy boundaries in the process.