Mighty, I always have to be honest...that's just who I am. It doesnt serve you well if I'm not.
He is telling you that he doesnt want a relationship with anyone. He is there for the kids. You need to hear it even if you dont want to.
That doesnt mean he will always feel like that. It doesnt even mean that it's true. But it's how he thinks he feel right now.
He isnt there for you, you're right. I dont think he is capapble of it at this time. He just isnt.
So, you havent expectations of that isnt a good thing for you.
You are so hard on yourself, M. Really hard. When the truth is that have been dealing with some deep, heartbreaking stuff.
I think you have got to get off the ride for now. You are spinning and it isnt good for you.
You have to get to a place of detachment. I know thats a hard thing. I do. But you are just going round and round.
He cannot give you what you want now. Even if that is just as a friend who supports you. He has nothing to give. He is still a mess.
He has hurt two women. He cant face what he's done to you. And I think he has terrible guilt about bringing this baby into the world.
So, he is trying to do what he can for all of you. Im not giving him a free pass because he has to own all the cr@p he has done. I am just saying that this is all he is capable of right now.
Is he making the right choices? Probably not. But he is in crisis and has created a great, big mess.
What does this mean for you? It means that you have to stop expecting anything from him. It means that you have to remember how strong you are. It means that you need to really leave him to figure this out without interfering.
Oh and flipping out? Been there, done that, too. We are human dealing with situations so far away from what we knew.
M, leave him to this. For real. Hear him. Take care of you.
You are so strong and amazing. You deserve to get to a place of peace.
No one knows what the future holds...except that it holds you.
