Ss... first... thank you for being here with me tonight.
And, I laughed at:
Quote:
sometimes the best you in the moment is a flipper outer.
Yeah.... sometimes.... I'm that.
But then you took me to task:
Quote:
the post above seems to imply that you're everything you don't want to be
Hmmm... I don't know. I don't know who I am, really. Just frustrated. And now, feeling like he is there, because she is calm (maybe??) frustrates me. They sit together in the living room for hours at a time with this baby (he told me). She isn't as emotional because she isn't as invested. She hasn't had the devastation that I have. That they created. So am I resentful that she is the one who is calm now? Yes! See... sounds messed up. I could come up with a million reasons why that's screwed up and why I need to pull it together. But, it still frustrates me.
However, she is shallow and doesn't really care right now, because who she thought she loved, she doesn't even know. And she is still getting the same money going into their joint account that has gone in since they bought a house. So, I am sure, once that part starts coming up, it probably won't be so sweet. But, he seems like he wants to give her the world now... so who knows.
I can keep this thought, though. If he does go back to her. Good luck. It is the exact same person he was with before. And now, just now, thinking of this, makes me think that maybe I would care a little less if he did go back to her. Is this what I want?
If that's what makes him happy.... well... I doubt it... but it must be something. Give it time. I know how it will end. I'm pretty sure.
And this friendship will cease to exist. No anger. No animosity. I am just not ok with the duo who disrespected and destroyed me and my family.
BTW, ss. Not only thank you, but great posts, too. They were really helpful to me tonight. I'm gonna try to sleep.
