Well you are certainly not alone in the "I don't know what to do with myself" camp. I'll sit next to you.
You HAVE been very strong, Mighty. You have! But you're not being strong so he'll see it. You're being strong because that's WHO YOU ARE!
And I completely relate when you say the weak days stick out. I can hang out with WAH for hours and the ONE time I say something that even remotely reminds him of the old days it's like he pulls back and needs to detox for three weeks. It's cool though because you know what?
I'm a work in progress. I'm not perfect and will never be perfect. I will not fit into his little mold of what he needs and wants at every single moment of every single day.
I am me.
Do you think you need a break from all this? Time to step back and breathe, recenter, recalibrate, reassess, find your footing?
You're no the only flipper outer, either. The goal isn't to be calm, gracious, put-together... the goal here is to be the BEST YOU and sometimes the best you in the moment is a flipper outer.
Accept yourself for who you are. What you put forward and how you process things.
You, just as you are, are valuable! ^^^^ the post above seems to imply that you're everything you don't want to be.
