I just had to take a small break, so sorry for my meltdown.
I just feel like nothing about me makes H happy anymore. And yes me asking =stressing H out but he's been telling me for months he's taking care of it and he hasn't. I don't want to be afraid or feel that I can't bring things up because it *might* stress him out.
The way I'm living right now is no way to live. I'm the only person that can change that and I need to figure out what I want.
I want to be married but first and foremost I want to be happy. Right now he doesn't make me happy - he makes me feel stressed, sad, hopeless, etc.
I just am having a hard time dealing with the way he's acting. I know it's supposed to be for better or worse and from this day forward which I am doing but geez can he at least act like he likes me instead of feeling so forced.
I try to have light breezy conversations with him and he's just so blah, Ya okay uh huh. It's like pulling teeth!
