I just had a really lovely couple of days - went out to breakfast with a girlfriend. Went to see my aunt and ended up staying the night, drinking and talking love, life and the universe.

Then today had a pub crawl walk in memory of a local, was a lovely and fitting way to see him off.

Came home and had a feeling I should check my NZ bank account - my s had sold my car and the money had been paid to my H and he was going to transfer the money to me - I have received the payment ......from a joint account ...h & ow .... looks like this is a serious relationship if they now have joint bank account :o( But why did he feel the need to send the payment to me from it - he knew the names would show up on my statement - why the need to rub his relationship in my face ....especially as he has not actually told me of it, I had to hear that from my s's. He has a sole account so could have easily sent it from that instead - but no.

I have not done anything to warrant this treatment - I have been kind towards him; I agreed to everything he has wanted, I have left him to live his life as he wants. I don't contact him, demand anything from him, or interfere. So why did he feel the need to twist the knife a bit more?

Tomorrow I am going away for a few days - good timing after this latest discovery - it feels like I am being bombarded with his new relationship - with the moving in, buying new furniture and now joint bank account. I just want the pain of this to go away, this is so not fair.