Heather's Prison Break

[LoisB]

And, I HAVE GOT TO STOP PUNISHING MYSELF WHEN I DON'T DO THINGS PERFECTLY ON A PERFECT SCHEDULE AND/OR I DROP THE BALL AFTER MAKING PROGRESS.

I need to be kind with myself. I came by these habits as a way to survive some terrible circumstances. I was just reading how sleeping is the best thing you can do when stressed. Bio-chemically, your body will repair the damage and sorta reboot when it sleeps. So, my habit of retreating to bed has, maybe, saved my a$$ all these years. So, I need to stop beating myself up for coming up with some fairly smart ways to survive a lot of stress. I just have to adjust things a bit. Not everything. A lot of what my instincts tell me to do is very keen and important to my getting into a zone to get my writing done.

I'm at my best when I am quiet, alone, have time to work out my thoughts, relaxed...Some of what looks like sheer laziness to the rest of the world, in my case, is how I process a lot of overwhelming information and get through/problem solve.

I need to trust that right now.