Comforting as always. This person that I'm becoming, the angry person is what I need to stop. I've never been this way. What you said a couple weeks ago about judgment and expectations is what I need to change to be a better person. I think that's why am struggling with this so much. I just don't know exactly what the difference between detaching and being done is, but what you said here really puts in perspective. I do want to be married and I do want to be married to my wife. I just don't know how to protect myself enough while she's pushing me away like she is that I don't get bitter. You guys are helping me out with that journey, I thought it was standing up for what I believe. But that is just going to make more angry when she doesn't do what I expect. So as I go through this I'm learning a lot and deep down in my heart I want this to work out. I want my wife to find the person that she is, and hopefully that includes me. Thanks everyone for bearing with me right now.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
