Mighty, I think we all appreciate how much is going on, and I suspect no one could keep all of those plates spinning without having problems.
Your focus probably needs to be on getting through each day with authenticity.
The fear of rejection is potent. Your xh is probably also worried about this too. It is part of rebuilding trust - how can you trust this guy to follow through, to do the right thing by you?
How can he be sure that the hurt and resentment can ever be overcome. That is why at some point couples who rebuild need help to refocus.
AJ is right, ultimately it will be your call. Because of your fears of rejection you don't see it that way.
Hang in there and try to relax - Go visit Shining - have some fun.
