W has packed all her belongings and retreated to her bedroom. From this point on I will not be around my wife without the kids being present (and awake)
I know my marriage has been dead for a minimum 4 months but this is a real milestone on that journey now. We are now no more than co parents which is something I never in my life wanted. 8 days before BD I booked a family holiday which I now have to cancel.
I take delivery of Jim mk8 on Wednesday but I suspect it will take a few days/weeks to shift across from mk7
Having said all that the interaction I've had with my wife has all been chatty and OK. Outwardly she is sadder than I am but thats stress about the move and her family driving her nuts - difficult to validate without sounding like I'm criticising her family.
She's been really upbeat this evening, but then she is messaging someone and I know OM1 is back from his holiday today. In my Ws eyes her fantasy life starts this week.
You can probably tell I'm feeling down about this but surprisingly unstressed by my standards. She believes what she believes and for her thats what matters and right now that means leaving me.
Intellectually I know a lot of what's going on, I know this isn't the end and having been a walkaway myself I know to an extent how she might be feeling and why right now she couldn't care less about my journey and growth. despite that I'm afraid of the outcome, I'm afraid that I've pinned my hopes on being at best plan B, and I'm afraid of being alone but more than anything I really miss her.
There's no need to reassure me or tell me that I need to detach as I do know all that. To be honest right now I just need to grieve a bit.
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
