What does good idea mean? What exactly are you asking? Be clear. be honest.

Because you are were in jail doesn't mean you couldn't have said, "I think that's a great idea. Let's research therapists and when I get out, I'm there."

You defend a lot, there are many implied "but(s)" in your posts.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss