Whelp.... I'm an idiot. Started a new thread and posted on the old. I will copy and paste it below:

Hey Gwen & g! Thanks for poppin in!

Bea, thanks for that. Very interesting! You are certainly right- he isn't cooked yet. I don't know exactly what I'm supposed to do, other than focus on myself.

It's also interesting that your x still brings that up- let alone serves out slices of responsibility to others. Ick! I don't want a lifetime of that, and after the emotional, heartfelt apologies, I am now sensing blame from him.

He's in a whirlwind. I have to keep that in mind. I need to be calm and steady.

I should use the strength from my mom... The lady who just finished fighting breast cancer, broke her arm while ice skating with her granddaughters (after they knocked her legs out from under her), finds out Monday if she has to have surgery- and is on her way to Zumba class right now! I'm like, seriously, mom??!!