Busting this Divorce - 90 Days NC #6

[HPoirot]

Hey thank you vasapro, bravo, and Vanilla for your kind words of support. I do feel like I'm making progress being a more authentic happy person for myself and my son. I've always been optomistic but I do take things hard and do tend to get in ruts. I see this in my son now with his bouts of sadness and I'm determined to help him.

On that note... the antidepressants seem to be working now. Over the past few days... I've been feeling a small but growing strange happiness. Sometimes almost excitement. Yesterday I caught myself dancing in the elevator to a song I was playing in my head. I went to bed last light laughing to myself about something. I answered all of W calls yesterday with calmness and no irritation. I walk with poise and purpose.

I'm getting very sleepy at points during the day though. So sleepy I feel forced to take as much as 2 naps a day. And they're extremely heavy naps. I wake up from them terribly groggy. That and I'm eating more and putting on weight. My motivation is not high... but not as low as it has been.

So I feel this was a good thing. I'm looking forward to feeling even better and stronger and less irritated with my W's behavior...

Like her texting me awake after midnight last night just to tell me to switch calendars and to ask how S12 was.

Or quickly walking away from me and S12 after we parked next to her in the gym parking lot before his game.

I was told to not be surprised or upset by things my W will do these days. I'm getting better at that.

And I have to remember her life is difficult right now. She said they we're struggling at her aunt's house. She said her money is not good. It's still a month until she moves to her apartment. And the IRS should start taking money from her paycheck next month.

I'm sure she'll be fine. She has some great business opportunities which, if they happen, would be fantastic for all of us.

So, I'm staying out of the way.

She just called to say she's here to pick up S12. She sounds irritable. Gave him a hug and sent him downstairs. Now he can't find his hat. She sends him back upstairs to find it. Now she texts and calls me sounding even more short irritable. She has a hat in the car. He found his hat upstairs. Now he's gone again. Nice.

I really hope they have a good time.

But, then again... no expectations.