still no sign of w although i did bump into her over her mams as i was leaving, i found out she had the week off work, dont know why she didnt mention it sunday, and i wont mention it either.
still uncertain why she is moving back to her mams after all the fuss of moving out.
1 she says she dont want a divorce 2 she has told om that she misses her family and loves me 3 she is moving back to her mams
to the naked eye it would appear shes coming in my direction or..
1 om managed to talk her around
2 shes seeing a solicitor secretly, shes a very organised person normally
3 shes moving out so she isnt tied in to her rented house and will be in a better position to prove to a court that she can afford the mortgage on this place and then move om in.
or
1 im reading way to much into a clearly unstable persons actions
2 im the unstable one :-)
i was reading another post earlier (i forget whos as ive read loads today) and the discussion was " trying to imagine what you next partner will be like " if things dont workout.
i found it interesting that i was having those exact thoughts yesterday, quite exciting stuff really and in a funny way cheers me up.
but maybe that puts me in the same boat "feelings wise" as w. the grass probably wont be greener and im probably better off trying to resolve my situation first.
w text first thing about bills etc there was no need really, i think shes testing me to see if my anger etc is still there.
to be honest i dont think it is but im afraid to get to close to her at the moment incase theres any news on her and om around the corner.
om ex gf has been texting me today asking is w giving me grief because om is giving his ex a hard time which only supports my belief that w has given him the elbow.
thats all i can do now is stay calm, be nice and keep her coming in my direction, om should start to get angry about this and show himself to be the person everyone except w knows he is. once the bond is broken between them we will see how it goes.
sounds great in theory, will it go that way though ?
forgot to mention that w bought me a gift this evening and we had some friendly banter about the dog via text, shes also called me twice today, not what you would call needless phone calls but normally she would have text.
before christmas i changed the locks after w came in at 6am and attacked me while sleeping.
she was angry that i had made it known to om via his ex that if w wanted to split from him it was for her own reasons and not the reason which he had told his ex gf and no doubt anyone else who would listen, which was that i had said if you dont come back i wont build your mothers house.
this was total rubbish and was maybe something w had told him to let him down gently and buy a few months for herself, she was no longer controlling the situation and went nuts on me for exposing her lies.
the house is virtually built now so thats not even an issue. a week after that was when she had told him the truth and he came to my place looking for her.
anyway, shes been threatening to have a key cut for weeks but never does, today she borrowed mine and said she never knew i had 3 keys, she thought i had one and my daughter had one.
she then asked why have i not gave her a key, i told her because she had moved out and it was a privacy thing advised by my solicitor.
she then asked what was wrong with the other lock that it needed to be changed !!
i said i changed it so you cant get in.
she said oh right.
its as if shes forgotten the last few months completely !!
so this evening she texts me to say that my keys are still in her bag and she would drop them in later.
she drops the keys in and gives me the gift ect ect.
ive just noticed that the new key is now missing off the bunch, obviously w has it, so do i ask her for it back and have the " its half my house too" conversation again where i explain im aware its half yours on paper but you dont live here etc or do i say nothing ?
W came over to drop some things off And hung around for a bit, washed Some dishes with me and just chatted About general things, she seemed reluctant To leave and said she would see me tomorrow.
Some advice at this stage would be More than welcome
My changes in everyday things are real But my feelings on this affair are getting Worse.
I let myself down yesterday and today by Having a go at her for being a sneak,a liar, And for manipulating me for 10 mths.
I asked her if she was so unhappy why Did she wait until she " had someone" before Telling me how she felt.
I put it to her that she couldn't do it alone, It's easy to split if you've got someone else To be nice to you and look after you, what a coincidence it was That the man of her dreams just happened to Be the person who works with her, and By the time I meet someone new she will Have realised that the clown isn't the Man (boy actually) of her dreams.
I also said that all this stuff about not knowing Who she wants is her being afraid to be on her Own and she can't let go of one until she Knows she has a firm grip on the other And that if he was the type she likes then She can jog on because Thank God I am Nothing like him and never will be.
She in turn brought up emotional needs she Felt I didn't meet, most of which I agreed to And said I would have tried, she said she doesn't even know herself Anymore if she was expecting too much From a partner.
Do I take from that Om is wearing a bit thin ?
I insisted that this thing she's doing, coming over an acting like We are best friends has to stop, she chose To leave and theres no inbertween.
I've probably broke every rule in the book over the last 2 days But to be honest I didn't care at the time, I was sick and tired of Being treated like a pet she can check up on when she feels like.
Just seen w when I went to collect the children And she didn't even look at me, she's prob over her Mates now saying what a jerk I am for not being A good little boy and letting her have her own way Like I normaly do.
