Requesting support and direction

[Andy125]

Thanks for the responses. yup def have seen a lawyer and am doing my best with his advice to protect myself as best as I can. I absolutely see what you are saying Sandi about only wanting change where is suits her, and leaving everything else the same. I see that all the time here. Even in her comments from time to time... like nothing is about to change like this whole thing isn't a thought in her mind. Honestly it is those times, or moments where I somehow build up hope, and I'm learning that this isn't helpful. In fact it is probably down right wrong.

25yearsmlc I absolutely see what you are saying. I am working really hard to change myself and be a better person all around. I actually think that right that living together is impeding this a bit. I keep getting drawn into her storm that has nothing to do with me... and I probably have lingering feelings of wanting to try and fix/help her out. Its her journey and I can't, I shouldn't and I won't. I do care about her, but I also know that if she doesn't walk this path on her own there really is no hope.

I am doing the good hard work that comes with changing my own mental outlook there are so many inspirational stories out there. I can't help but be grateful for people allowing me to share my story and offering comments/encouragement. I also agree with you that trying to demonstrate any change is hard when we see each other everyday. It is also hard to truly go through the changing process when my W continues to pull me into the drama... whether intentionally or not. I guess it comes down to, its hard enough to make my own big changes. Its even harder to do them trying to navigate around someone who is in their own [censored] storm.

Lastly I just want to share this... I try to keep it in mind

You either walk inside your story and own it or you stand outside your story and hustle for your worthiness. ~ Brene Brown