I'm having a bad day. I am feeling so sad and confused on what to do.
I just want to start over I want everything to be okay and I want him to be who he was when he came back.
I need to pick myself up. I'm home with the boys now and they are outside jumping on the trampoline and Im just sitting outside watching them. Wondering wtf is going on with my life.
I feel like I'm at the point right now of saying are you in this or not. I just want a damn answer. I am so sick of I don't know. I feel like I'm in limbo.
I know everyone says patience but damn ... I took him back and now he's not keeping his promises. I want my M but I am done feeling like this.
He either wants this M or he doesn't. Either fight for us or get out.
TO,
Right now, you need to just stop. Take a breather.
I can tell you that if you push this issue, you will probably get an answer from your H that you do NOT want.
There is a saying in the MLC forum (which is my home), that says you can't unring the bell once it's been rung.
One of the things that I learned from DB, maybe more from these forums than the book, was the difference between acting and REACTING.
Action is based in logic and thought.
Reaction is based in emotion.
If you act based on how you are feeling right now, you will be reacting out of fear. And what did Mach tell you about fear earlier today?
I was drawn to your thread because I was asked to look at another poster. I have spent the last two days catching up on your situation.
If you really want to save your marriage, you NEED to slow down and breathe.
You didn't get here overnight (although I know it feels that way) and you won't leave here overnight either.
So, can you slow down and give this the time that it needs and deserves or are you ready to throw in the towel?
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
