I love you. I do:). You touched on so many things that are 100% accurate. I swear, if you peeps met me IRL I would have you in stitches. That's not arrogance-it's true. Trust me:-) I just feel crazy and out of control. I know it takes time. I need to get my head together. I am a pensive one. I can't get out of my own f$&king head. Literally.
You know what? I just want sex. I was never sexually attracted to my xh. I thought he was cute but I never respected him. God. Yes I'm admitting this. I want down and dirty sex. I want someone to want me and not blame me for their ED. (Maybe I was the cause. I don't really know). I want someone to take charge. And after having very little sex for the last 11 years, I want it. I think it's control. I know I can't control everything in my logical mind, however I just want to push every sexual boundary I have ever established in my mind. My mind is very preoccupied with sex. I just want to do it all of the time. I have these very sexually charged exchanges with men. I don't even feel bad. Yet. Maybe that comes later. Maybe it doesn't.
Sorry if that's TMI. I realize there is deeper issue and that's what I want. And I want it now. I hope everyone doesn't think I'm crazy but maybe I am.
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3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
