Do I walk away from WAW? (3)

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Well, w came home right before I had to leave for my gig. She gave me a sheepish look and I told her that I was unsure what exactly I wanted to know about this plan, but that I had a lot of concerns for her safety, mainly because I didn't really know what it truly was. She seemed to overreact to my concern, telling me that I had nothing to worry about, that lots of women do this, and it's totally normal. She mentioned a former roommate of mine I lived with when we first started dating who did peep shows for money. She said "it's not prostitution" and said it didn't even involve nudity. "It's just demeaning men who by off on being demeaned, and they pay you. You work everything out beforehand." Then she said she's having second thoughts about it all together and that she hasn't done it yet. I told her I didn't want her to have second thoughts on my account and that I wouldn't discourage her from doing it as lng as it was safe. She said her second thoughts were not because of me.

I didn't want to challenge her too much but it honestly doesn't even sound like she has it that thought through. She says she hasn't talked to anyone about it. So how does she know it's a normal thing to do, and that its so safe that I shouldn't even worry a little? So very strange. And she's not even sure she's going to do it, yet earlier in the day she was complaining that my gig was getting in the way of her going out to make money? Was she just going to show up at a random guys house and start humiliating him? There have been a lot of really odd moments in this experience but this might take the cake.

At the end of the convo, I lingered, something I haven't done in literally 3 to 4 months with her. I have given her no affection, no statements of love or asking her to consider workng it out. I've kinda started to think that if she's had any second thoughts, she's pushed them away because she's done so much damage already. I stood there for a minute and then just said that I still loved and cared about her, then I walked away.

Not good dbing exactly but then I'm not sure if I have been dbing too well for awhile. I've just been living as if she's gone.