I feel like I could've written what you have, Train. In fact, I'm wondering if my next thread belongs in piecing, and then I noticed that you posted this in the Infidelity forum rather than the piecing forum and wonder if you are having the same hesitation I am: maybe you're not really piecing (because you in your heart are not sure that you yourself are committed to piecing?)

I am presuming a lot, I know.

I, too am struggling with the loss of innocence, the lack of willingness to act publicly the way I used to act.

I don't post the "my hubster is the greatest because" posts on FB anymore either for the same reasons (well, also because he hasn't moved back in yet, but still.) My H is trying, at least I believe he is and so does our MC. And yet...

And yet.

As the anti-anniversaries continue to slide by (now approaching "The Day He Moved Out To Be With OW And He Was Lying About It, Too"), I wake up every morning determined to keep the commitment I made almost 30 years ago, but also wondering if I am keeping a commitment to myself to do what is right for ME, rather than for US.

Can't find the group either, I've enabled PMs, hoping someone will PM it to me.

M:54, H:55
T:33, M:27
12/13 BD: EA
01/14 BD: PA, H leaves
03/14 H & OW break up
05/14 H says he will file for D
08/14 H initiates D
09/14 H wants to R
12/14 Still bungling our way through R