Ganb8te 4 - Putting on my giraffe ears

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Ugh...back home after "GAL". The G&T is poured and I'm balling on my balcony.

I'm not quite sure where this emotion is coming from. Nothing has changed. So I saw him at a concert. No big deal. So why do I feel the worst I have felt in a long while? Maybe it's the idea that he was there with someone? Or the fact that this is the kind of thing we would have done together? I feel anger at him tonight and I don't usually feel that.

Gg - I didn't approach, but I didn't hide either. Actually I instinctively moved into view so he could see me. My eyes did follow when he left but I saw nothing. It almost felt like a cruel joke. Like the explanation I've been looking for was there, but I didn't get to read it before it was taken down. I was waiting for his face to pop up on the screen just to really rub it in.

I believe there is zero chance that that he would text me or call me out on not talking to him. We're just not interacting like that. I bet he's just hoping I didn't see him. It honestly feels like the song - now he's just somebody that I used to know.

Tonight I have no hope.

1:25000 odds. Why did I have beat those?

PS I know you all deal with this regularly so I'm sorry for dumping this here. It's really not a big deal. It just makes me feel like shite tonite. It know it will pass.